I had an experience which taught me a lesson about spirits and keeping strong boundaries up...I was out at my friends place in Clovis ca and I was there to help move spirits from one area of the building to another area...I have never done this before so I was really interested if it was going to work...I have had a lot of contact with the spirits in this  place and they know me...I have talked to them on many occasions about this upcoming event and they have been scared about it..The spirits that reside in the place are mostly older folk who died there back when it was a convalescence facility, or confused people who are lost..its very sad...but I love these spirits very much and have made it my task in this life to help and protect them...So my goal was to get them to go from the hospital wing which was being torn down to the main house that was not being touched...
Well to make a long story short, because it is a long ass story, I was successful in getting everyone from the hospital wing to the main house...I was so excited, I had done what I told them I would do. I had told them that I would be there for them and that I wouldn't let anything happen to them..Now please know that I know they are dead and that nothing can truly hurt them, but I could feel their fear so strongly it just ripped at my heart...
So I have all the spirits in the house..I'm a happy woman...
We decide to go into the hospital wing to watch as the bulldozer comes through the wall of the wing...My friend Todd who owns the house wants to film this for his documentary which is about the making of a haunted hotel...So he wants he and I standing in the middle of the wing while the bulldozer rips through the walls behind us...We filmed that and it went well. After, we started watching the wreckage happen before our eyes...While I was standing there I suddenly had the feeling that a couple of the energies had come back to where I was standing and were very close to me...Then I noticed my heart was beginning to beat very hard and that I couldn't move..I couldn't move my head, or arms, or body and I couldn't blink my eyes, I was paralyzed..No matter what I tried to do I couldn't move...I heart continued to beat rapidly and I began to shake..My whole body was shaking so strongly I thought someone would notice standing next to me..There were 5 of us standing there watching..My friend Todd said we should all move back to the end of the wing to stay safe and they did, but I stayed fixed in place..I wanted to wave my arm at them or turn my head to say "hey folks I need some help I can't move" but I couldn't..On top of all of this I suddenly was overwhelmed with the urge to run down the hall and into the way of the bulldozer...It took every ounce of my being not to do this..I was trying with all my might to stay put and try to motion to someone to come and get me...When I was at my ropes end and I couldn't hang on any more my friend was at my side..I told him I couldn't move so he put his hands on my shoulder and guided me back to the other end..I told him to not let me go and to hold me firmly no matter what and he did...I knew if he let go I would go running into the bulldozer...after around 5 minutes I started to get my ability to move my body and the spirits moved away...After I had a chance to calm down and center myself again I started to understand what the energies were trying to do, they were hoping that by my running into the bulldozer I would stay with them forever...I was a tad arrogant in my thinking that I could keep them at a distance and I had totally let my guard down...I hope I never forget that and always have strong boundaries when dealing with the energies out there...

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