I want to live in the light again

I want to bask in the radiant glow of the sun.

I want to feel its warmth as it washes over me.

But I can not!

For its cleansing truth burns my tender flesh,

Reducing my bones to ashes.

I have sinned they scream.

I have sinned for what I am.

A lover of men

But am I not the same?

Do I not love like the others?

Do I not cry the same tears as they do?

No- They scream

In deafen tones that shake the ground

On which I stand.

I stumble back and think again of the sun.

Do I not laugh like they do?

Do I not get angry like they do?

Do I not feel pain like they do?

No- They scream

You are not but an abomination

A scar on the face of humanity

Again I stumble back and think of the sun

And I weep. I weep till there are no tears to shed

I must hide what I am

I must hide it deep in the very soul of my heart

I must cage it like man cages a bird

Or a wild beast they do not understand

I must kill what they do not want.

Then I can live in the light?

No- They scream

For you will be but a fake

A carbon copy of a human being.

I stand tall

I am what I am!

I will stand in the light

For as long as it is the truth

I will not burn.

I will not hide my beast of burden

I will not cage my animal

For those who have screamed No

Turn and look away for you are not

Worthy of this man

Again I stumble back for the light is

Radiant and cleansing

Again I am at peace and one with the world

Written By: Raven Bear Paw (CJ)

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