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Who am I supposed to be...


Tabernacle among ruins,

I am supposed to hold the dreams.

Nails scratch, scrape, and snap.

And drops of blood call for hope.

My walls are dry but red.

My echo is deaf --

in silence, the patience rankles.

I am supposed to be the temple and the holy ghost
with bag of miracles and open doors.

I am supposed to be an answer to a call,

dawn for the rugged night and

night for the lingering day.

But from the star, I am its reflection in the lake.

From the body, I am the shadow

Because the fire in the temple

is the flame of a candle.



I was sitting at work. You really reached out to me.I ran for my life, in my chopper..



I, almost died in that river and was caught in an eddy or hydraulic.The rocks were on one side of me and the water kept sucking me down.


I was so very angry. I saw what was happening from above and could see that my friends were trying to help me out of it. I felt cold and dark and my mind was telling me to relax that I was going to die. My spirit felt like an angry child, I could hear my dead friends fussing at me , "She had no buisiness up there in that river". I could hear another voice say that "You would have never let this happen". I was so mad because I wanted to live. There was this tremendous fight going on and I cannot recall ever before or since feeling such strong anger and sadness.Yep once same happend too..but not this much severe.



You can feel how i felt then here






Finally, I heard a voice telling me that I was not that old yet. It kept repeating that, and then, when I was almost tired of fighting and a horrible sadness seemed to be all of me, I felt the strong pull of someone pulling me by my waist onto a rock.and again back to life...cant even remember her name too now..

You can feel it here.



That was some years ago & now I know that I am supposed to be here in with you.Dont Know how long..and with whom...


When my time and work are finished, then maybe that's when I'll go-----more willingly,alone or together.



Still then you can call me Nishani, and shoot me with all your queries and I will reach out to you, hopefully you maybe the one who will be pulling me by my waist onto a rock, and again back to life, if i fell again into that deadly river.



Let the IAH darkness consume you...



More about me


* Fun to be with


* Secretive


* Difficult to fathom and to be understood


* Quiet unless excited or tensed


* Takes pride in oneself


* Has reputation, but all bad!!


* Easily consoled


* Honest


* Concern about people's feelings


* Tactful


* Friendly


* Approachable


* Very emotional


* Tempramental and unpredictable


* Moody and easily hurt

* Witty and sarky


* Sentimental


* Not revengeful


* Forgiving but never forgets

* Dislike nonsensical and unnecessary things


* Guides others physically and mentally

* Sensitive and form s impressions carefully


* Caring and loving


* Treats others equally


* Strong sense of sympathy


* Wary and sharp


* Judge people through observations


* Hardworking


* No difficulties in studying


* Loves to be alone!


* Always broods about the past and the old friends


* Likes to be quiet


* Homely! person


* Waits for friends

* Never looks for friends


* Not aggressive unless provoked


* Prone to having stomach and dieting problems


* Loves to be loved


* Easily hurt but takes long to recover


* Overly concerned


* Puts in effort in work

All switches to save electricity!!!

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