Hi All,

Not much energy left for typing but had to stop in to let you know what's going on.  We are at the cancer treatment center of america in Philly, waiting on the rest of the results to see how much cancer there is.  This is non small cell lung cancer, stage 3 and we are looking at all the options.  Anyone that knows this cancer knows the odds but we are not talking about the odds, we are fighting hard to live.  I am working hard at keeping my faith, healing myself and accepting all the energy, prayers and intentions from around the world.  Thank you all for your friendship and healing and if I may be so bold, I will ask that you continue to send the most powerful healing available and then share in the miracle I intend to be.

Blessings to all

Maura

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Not much energy for more than this but had to update.  I am home, alive and waiting for specialist on Wed.  Struggle to breath, focused on healing everyminute of the day, affimations, feeling your energy.  Will post as often as I can, meds have me in a fog, please stick with me, even if I can't respond I can feel you.  I tell myself., I am healthy, I forgive myself and I am worthy and grateful for life.  I want to live, I am alive.

Blessings to you and yours

Maura

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Ok,

I am not pointing fingers or trying to tick anyone off but I've been reading all the posts and blogs about IAH and funding for days and have had to bite my lip for fear of coming across wrong.  Well, my lip has a hole in it and I am going to offer my opinion.  Take it for what it is, just my opinion.

First, I keep hearing Alan apologize and try to justify why he needs the money to keep this site going.  He's worried someone will feel he's making money from doing his job, God forbid that should happen!  He shouldn't have to explain anything, or justify it for that matter.  He does the work, he had the idea, he offered the space for all of us and now we make him feel as if he has to "justify" why he needs money to keep it going?  Does everyone go to work everyday justifying to their boss and co-workers as well as their customers why they are being paid for their work?  NO..  And to make matters worse, he's not asking for a pay check, he's asking for help to keep all of US entertained, informed and connected.   Alan, you don't owe us a thing, in fact, we owe you and it's about time we started to pay up. 

I understand broke.  Many years ago, I was homeless, sleeping in the back of my truck until I could no longer afford gas to get it running.  I then "camped" out in an abandoned home, no water, no electric, no heat.  I was beaten up, down and in danger of being killed by my ex.  It was a horrible time and I do understand broke.  While I was that broke, I could not afford the luxury of food, much less a computer, time to surf the net or participate in these kinds of groups.  I had to get out and get going and there were sacrifices I had to make to get myself out of that hole.  Using the excuse, I am broke, while still enjoying a priviledge that others paid for just never occured to me but that's exactly what's happening here.   

What we're talking about here is .10 a day.  For what Alan offers here, that's a steal!  I know it's worth .10 to me to talk to all my friends here.   

I'm not begging anyone to pay up here, in fact, it's my opinion that if being here is not worth the sacrifice of .10 a day, maybe you shouldn't be here.  A pay site would encourage those that truly want to participate, that really understand the value of the site and the value of Alans work and it would make it exclusive.  There are plenty of other free sites on the net that people can go to if they don't feel they're getting real value here.  

Being on this site is a priviledge, not a right.  Expecting others to keep taking up the slack because you're worried someone else may make a living off the pennies a day you spend to be here is ridiculous.  

I vote for making this a pay site, fair for all, fair to Alan and allows those that truly want to be here a special location on the net to share our passions.

Just my .02 cents

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Hi All,

I am really in need of some supportive and healing energy and I can't think of a more powerful group to ask. 
I've been feeling bad since the end of April with really bad back pain and difficulty breathing.  I went to the Dr. and they thought I had just pulled a muscle since there were no other signs of illness.  I meditated, took it easier, etc. still with no improvement.  A few weeks ago I went back as my breathing just would not clear up even with an inhaler.  They did chest Xrays and saw nothing.   I went to 2 more races like that, tired, wiped out, in tons of pain but still going.  After all, they said nothing was wrong so I just worked through it.

Last week we were racing in Ohio and I kept getting worse.   The pain was so bad I could hardly walk and then I started coughing up blood.  I went to the ER and was diagnosed with double pneumonia and plueresy.  I finished the first round of treatments, still with no real improvement, they have today started me again on another round of antibiotics.  

I know there is a lesson in this for me and I am trying my best to keep my light and energy up, I just really think I could use a little help this time. 

Bless you in advance for any and all healing thoughts, prayers and energy.  May it be repaid to you 10 fold. 

Blessings

Maura

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Happy Mother's Day Mom,

You are a true example of what a Mother should be.  I may have been born to another but I was always meant for you.  You put your life and dreams on hold so that I might have a chance to live out mine.   I didn't understand all that you gave up, I only felt all that you gave.  You are my Mother, the only one for me. 

Thank you Mom for allowing me to share your life, for protecting me when I was scared, for scaring me when I was wild and for loving me, when I couldn't love myself.

Thank you Mom for showing me that blood ties don't even compare to ties of the heart.  I may not have been born to you, yet you gave me life.  

I miss you Mom, today and everyday.  Your passing on this day, 6 years ago still echo's in my heart.   Even in death, you still watch over me, showing me signs that your love still reaches across the veil.  I feel your breath on my skin, I still feel your touch.  I see your face in my dreams and I hear your voice in my mind.   Today is your day as we celebrate your life.    

Happy Mother's Day Mom,

Now & Forever,

Your little girl 

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This is a call for prayers and healing white light for the friends, family and victims of the Virginia Tech shootings today.  

This is such a sad and frustrating situation, a senseless waste of life.  Please take a few moments today to send your thoughts and energy. 

Blessings to all, 

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