This morning I am having Coffee as normal and going though my papers of the projects I am working on.

I am not quite sure which parts to blog. I ruled out placing any spell on this site so I don’t offend others. I understand there are many beliefs on here. I did place up a few sections of my original work.

I also debate the safety of what I was working with last night in translation. It seemed rather diabolical and I have doubts someone could wield such an act without going completely mad.

I do understand why such a work would exist in a need of defense. I do view bringing forth phantasmal entities in call to be rather disturbing and the method unsettling but quite workable and occultist sound.

I had debated the origin and agenda in research. I had an expert look at the works tells me style of writing was Middle English. More interesting is the style of speech seems to change randomly. Not that odd in such works I have found. I will be placing these works in my book. I decided to only sell to an adult audience.

I had a friend who is a literary major verify the age of several of the works I am working with. I was told what I had been rare and quite odd. Some of this work has left me perplexed greatly. It took up to 40 mines to find the meaning of just one word at times. Sections are missing but I can see the method and repair and place in back into the modern tongue.

In some of my other works

When my Family had lived in Italy before my birth my Grandmother had collected several works with notes from friends she had made there.

It looks like Charles Leland’s work kind of. Except in this version of Vangel It has the childhood of Aradia. More on her birth and it differs greatly. I can’t quite understand all of it as of yet.

I say it looks like someone’s family tradition that was kept up. This would have been a marker in the mid 1960’s. I decided to include it one of my books. It differs so greatly from the 2 translations I had seen on market and I could not call it the same work. Chapters differ also. It was all hand written in both Italian and Greek. Why Greek I do not know and is quite a mystery.

My Grandparents and mother spent many years in collecting information. Trying to make head or tails has been a challenge to say the least.

My health has been quite bad so I have a feeling of rush to get it to where it needs to be before I leave here.

In many ways I made this my gift to the world. I would paint again but it hard to hold my hand steady. I had given away several of my paintings and they float about.

While I am not the most eloquent writer I am attempting to place care into each work with every fiber of my being. Without spell check my works would be a nightmare. I write everything down that flows into my head. I feel dual in personality almost. There is me who is about as silly and as child like as you can go, “I can be like a ten year old with a gun at times” then my other half having war with verity of diversity transiently in thought among a spiritual universe forever trying to defend knowledge.

So much that may never be said rewritten or understood.

I have read lost works from a Nun who has suffered greatly that she could never tell others of the things she saw dieing with regret that she was never understood to Alchemist ever trying to reach forward to understanding not just God but a symbolism of works.

I have seen the works of Women and Men in Witchcraft. Some who forever want to move forward in love and others who hearts where harmed so badly had turned into a dark recess and never came out.

I had read the account of one Woman who was spat upon and treated quite badly but when someone would fall ill they would go to her home in desperation. Her formulas where quite interesting. They hung her later after she could not heal an infant.

It was written her last words where something like “I forgive you for you are children who are afraid.”

I don’t think she was Pagan. She was using angels to heal. In many cases researching if you had differed at all you where a heretic and put to death. The Jews in Europe seem to be a very large target in older times.

I have found several Pagan texts. It seems there is a record but most don’t seem to want to work for it. In the 1930’s many did skim from it but after a bit a great deal was dismissed as almost they only wanted what had supported there cause at points. I will not speak badly of other authors being I feel all books are important.

Right now I picking directions and deciding what to do.

Anyhow, I wish everyone a good day.